((((((( RACEKA )))))))

You certainly didn't waste the therapy session, you managed to disclose some information that was very difficult to do. We quite often block off the feelings in order to try and cope. If you are used to holding those feelings in, it will take time for the feelings to come through. Next time you see T let him know what has been going on, let him know you find it difficult to show feelings in front of him. Print this thread out if you need to.

Be gentle with you, it takes time.