i can not take this!!!!! I am either being a ***** or being selfish. Those are the words from my husband. I hate this!!!! I can not help it i have the stupid illness and there is nothing I can do about it. But no according to my husband I care about no one about my self and it makes him f--ing sick. Well what the hell does he think it does to me? To have no one. And literally no one. No mom no dad not much of a sister and a grandma who thinks depession is the 'devil working". I hate living in this situation. i can not stand it when no one understands me. When I get yelled at it makes my anger anxiety and depression worse. It makes me feel like a piece of Sh---t like I am worthless becuse I am not good enough to be a good wife. Why? Because my in laws are *** holes. And everthing is falling apart. At least for me. Every one else is fine and dandy. Does he even know what his yelling does to me? It makes me incredibly mad. Makes me want to do stupid **** like leave for days and just get high again. What is so wrong with me that every one has either grown to hate me or has abandoned me. I am truly alone. No one to go to No one to talk to.Id o the best I can and that ain't good enough for him. Nothing.