{{{{{{{{Mary Alice}}}}}}}}}}

Your last sentence about your Father teasing you cropped up an old memory for me......my best friend in High School (Cindy) was so very hard on herself and I didn't realize the extent until we were sitting in class and received our biology test back (Grade 10 - umm a couple years ago ). She made 98 on her test and was sitting there crying and I mean really sobbing. I went over to her thinking that she failed her test and she looked up at me...eyes full of tears and said "My Father is going to kill me...I didn't make 100". I remember giving her a hug and telling her he will be proud of her.

The next day I asked how his reponse was and she said..."just like I said - disappointed in me". I remember going home from school and telling this to my Mom. She said that it was sad but there was nothing I can do about it. I remember feeling so helpless. Cindy went on with her education and is quite successful today but that moment showed me the extent of her wanting to succeed - not for herself but for someone else.

I just want you to know that I understand how you feel and wish you could feel good in succeeding for yourself and no one else but you.



Heather

"The Pessimist complains about the wind, the Optimist expects it to change and the REALIST adjusts his sails." ~~~author unknown