Therapy with my sweet emdr t monday we talked about the grief and 9. Nine wrote tons though i am not did 9 is very seperate. 9 cried it was ok. 9 started writing to the t small things at home and she wrote how the night of the rape in the hospital she needed to be held until she felt safe and the physical pain eased. That was the night 9 became seperate and stopped growing. That pain tonight made my stomach cramp and i had to take the pills. This is hard to say.