I am very glad pdoc is being so supportive of you - next time you have a chat with yourself remind yourself that you are worthy of other peoples care and that although that is what we often believe not everyone has an alterior motive (im working on both of those )

Accepting that there are good people out there who might actually maybe perhaps be genuine caring and compassionate people and that they could possibly maybe perhaps once in a while care about us is soooooo hard. But it can be true