I feel like I'm in the same boat as you. I've struggled for the past year to talk in therapy, but I've gotten to the point where I feel like I'm wasting her time because I can't talk very much. So on Monday I didn't make a new appointment with her, I just walked out after our session, but she ended up calling me to talk and even on the phone I was at a loss as to what to say. I did end up making an appointment for this morning, so we'll see how it goes.

I've thought about just trying to think about what I want to say and talk about, right before the session, or even just jotting down a few topics on a piece of paper to help me remember what to say, so you might want to think about trying that. I know it's so frustrating and makes you want to just give up, but somewhere inside you there's things you want to say, and maybe it'll just take some more time to be able to express them.