I never thought at age 40 I would have gotten caught up in a drug.

Both choices I gave myself were wrong... and extremely deadly.

Well, 4 years later.... monies gone, house, childrens coins etc....

Of course tried and tried and tried............................

The people dealing the stuff know when you're about to.....

Then you see stuff that triggers..... even simple, I mean simple

Even on television when seeing people getting jailed for it.... trigger

Staying away from, had to move, only to run myself back to them, changing phone numbers, not looking at street names......

I would see others and think "hey I must be missing something" or "I want to be a part of something".
That there is just crazy... no good ever came to that....
That after effects: low self-esteem, not being able to think straight, lying....

It's not easy. It doesn't just poof go away.
Also seemed when I found something that finally got me away and I realized that and acknowledged it was the same day I'd blow it.

I even tried those AA DAA programs but they trigger me to go do.

I'm older now and I see what it has done to some of my memory, spelling, etc.... it's like a type of thing old people get. It's embarrassing.

But, science HAS NOW PROVEN CELLS CAN GROW BACK...

Also tell you went was off for a while and did - I saw that thing exactly like the old people thing....

It's not easy... what is... but what you'll begin to feel inside your own brain (mine especially self-esteem) is an eye opener.... of ....

Blah Blah.... I think you get me.

Remember though - They know when you're due.... they'll call, come around, ..... mine did. He even knew each month my monies...
And why = CAUSE THAT PAID HIS DANG CAR BILL OR WHATEVER.