Thanks, Peaches. But I'm not sure how helpful it was. Sigh.....I wish I could have more sessions. It's not like loving myself and rejection and all that stuff is new. I've talked about it for years. I'm just blocking out on what to do.

My T gives me advice, and I don't always take it. She said I should do more of the things I like to do, like work more, or volunteer. But I'm exhausted already. I don't know. I feel like I'm at loose ends. Having a cold/virus doesn't help matters, either. Maybe it would be better not to see her, but I CAN'T. You know how that is!!! I don't want her advice as much as I want HER. But that's not entirely true either. I don't even know the truth, or maybe I don't want to face it?