(((((((((((((teary_me)))))))))))))))))

No, you're not disgusting. I feel really bad your stepdad did that to you. Wasn't fair, or right. You are still good, okay?? You've always been, even if it doesn't feel like it.

Nobody would think you're disgusting. Only your stepdad for doing that is disgusting. Do tell someone (do you have T?) though. Safe hugs - do you know any ways to keep yourself grounded?