I have been having issues with mania for the last couple of weeks. My pdoc upped one of my mood stabilizers, but last night I started feeling manic again. I have been taking 'extra' Xanax XR (2 mg) to cope with my feelings. Today I started crushing them to try and feel the relaxation sooner. Then I decided to cut myself, something I have done in the past but not in a long time.
I called my therapist because I was in so much pain and he wanted me to call my psychistrist. I told him I would, but I won't. I will have to because I am going to run out of the Xanax soon and he only writes my scripts month to month (I've had this problem before). I am scared to call the pdoc for fear of what he will do. Should I tell him about the cutting or and the Xanax or should I just wait until I run out and then call him. I see my therpist again on Friday. I guess my biggest fear in him making me go to the hospital (the pdoc). What do you think? Thanks