(((((((((((((((((((peaches)))))))))))))))))))))

I just wanted you to notice the quote above....because you used almost the exact words in describing what you are worried T is feeling when she offers comfort to you. Do you think that maybe you are projecting your own feelings on to her and assuming that's how she feels when she offers you comfort?? I might be totally off base, but it just kind of jumped out at me.

I can relate to not wanting to take care of your little parts. When I started therapy, my T talked about me learning to parent myself...and I told him "I don't WANT to". It really doesn't feel fair...that we missed out on something we were supposed to have, and now we have to somehow provide it for ourselves. And T did tell me, "it's okay to feel angry about it".

I AM learning bit by bit to take care of little me. Part of how I am learning that is by watching how T takes care of me. If you are not getting what you need from T in that way, then maybe you DO need someone else, as painful as that probably is to consider.

I know you feel sad and scared right now. I'm sorry things have become so difficult with T. No matter what, you don't have to decide ANYTHING quickly. Give yourself time to get quiet, and you will start to know the right thing to do.

Sending tons of and to you.