((((Peaches)))),

You have not pushed your T away! You've been with her for 10 years; that's a long time. If she feels like she is not providing you with the best help she can give you anymore, then the most loving thing for her to do is try to find someone who CAN provide you with more help. I know you can't think of it in that way right now, but don't you see that she's doing this out of her deep affection for you? She wants you to get well! I'm sure it's hard for her to admit that she can't provide what you need right now, but it's in your best interests not to struggle with the same issue forever. It's unethical for her to do that, isn't it?

I'm thinking of times when my T refused to give me what I wanted. I asked her why was she being so mean. She said that everything she does is for my benefit. She wasn't doing anything to me, but for me. So I think your T realizes the touching would not benefit you.

I hope you will give this other therapy a chance. Your T is not abandoning you, but working with you to make your life better. I hope you can come to see it in that way.

I know it will be hard for you, but you can do it! I know you can.

Sending you to cheer you up.