I can feel your anger and frustration. I always thought that my SA was no big deal. It was a one-time thing, yes scary, disgusting and humiliating...but then it was over, and I "got over it".

I am just now starting to realize that in some ways I guess I never really did "get over it" and it affected other parts of my life (dislike intimate touch).

I'm not saying that's the case with you, but I do feel as though perhaps it's just out of genuine caring to want to be sure you are ok.