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ty so much for the responses, sorry I have been slow to respond.

the five classes I failed where over two semesters, I had to take 16+ hours each semester because of a scholarship I was on, I think it was too much for me, in a sense I am glad I lost the scholarship, it's like the world has been lifted off my shoulders.
Part of it is my fault, part of it is the fact my first semester I was dealing with so many mental issues that I"m surprised I lasted my whole first year of college without dropping out, I almost did drop out my second semester, I was considering it over Christmas break.

Turns out I didn't fail Earth Science , He just posted our final grades and I pulled a C! Which means I only failed four classes.

I"m cutting my classes down to four a semester, I think I'll be able to handle that A LOT, better than the six I was taking a semester, it will help improve my GPA.

I get so angry at myself when I fail things, I feel inadequate most of the time in everything I do besides writing, that when I fail a class it is like a slap in the face, it links back to those feelings and leaves me on a mental self destruct.

But I got up yesterday, and cleaned, gutted my room and put it back together again, it made me feel a lot better, and proved to myself that if I want to do something I can with a bit of hard work and determination.

Peace to all
Sparrow