You know what? I feel like that sometimes, too. I don't necessarily feel like a *****.. or I don't hear voices calling me a *****, but I feel horrible. I don't know why.
It's like if I feel like he's being selfish at all, I feel like crap.
Then, when it's over sometimes I just feel like crying. I don't even know what I'm feeling. Sometimes the tears just pour out and I have to try to hide them. I've never been molested or anything, but I wonder if maybe I was when I was very young? idk.. It's just weird when you react in these ways to sex and you don't really know why.

You're not alone.

Have you told him how you feel? It's something I need to try as well.