I had a PM from her last night, but it wasn't to say she'd changed her mind. Morelike to say that she's sorry she's hurting me so much and that she'll love me forever and that I can get through this and be strong and to keep fighting, for her sake and mine...

I'm in so much pain today after managing to eat yesterday and keep it down. I feel so sick and like my stomach has been twisted and pulled.

I hope that she'll be okay and I hope that I'll be okay and I just hope that Connor doesn't try to make me eat when he sees me today... It's not going to help me at all

I got woken up by the fire alarm AGAIN last night. Someone headbutted it. They had been drinking. Charlene was also one of these people and was stomping up and down the stairs and screaming her face off and shouting until about 3am. I spoke to Connor on sky chat and couldn't take it anymore. I just sid "I feel s--t".

I had stood by my door, waiting for one more loud scream or shout or bang to happen and then I was going to go out and tell them all where to go. I was so angry. 3 of the people drinking KNEW for a fact that I had JUST gone to bed because I was exhausted and almost falling asleep. Yet they went to Charlene's room, on our landing and ran around screaming and shouting etc and kept me up. NOT a happy bunny. So, I am tired. Once again. And more irritable that ever! So if anyone sparks off at me, I won't hold back. I'll just snap and shout back. I'm not standing for people - especially those that kept me up - shouting at me and getting mad at me for texting them or whatever telling them to keep the noise down because some people need sleep after four days of none. Or shouting at me for anything today. I went to bed and wanted sleep, fair enough. I had my quiet music on, just loudly enough so that I could hear it. I couldn't even hear that over the shouting, screaming and banging. Does no-one have any consideration for anyone in here?!?!?!

I admit, when I've been drinking, I giggle lots, I have fun. But I do that INSIDE the rooms, not out on the landings keeping everyone up. Hmm.

Sorry for the ramble. I'm just tired and not happy today and needed to vent...