I just couldn't believe he's attitude and blaming my husband for my depression etc. Been living this nightmare for years and just battling along, being the supermum. I'm very good at hiding my feelings until I hit a brickwall and I start ranting & raving and pulling the house apart.

I believe I have always had this problem since age 14 and at times it has nearly destroyed me and my marriage. My husband has always been there for me, in all of my mood swings. He is the calm one, and takes alot of crap from me. So I suppose in a sense the poor man is an idoit for staying for the past 32 years.

Once at aged 17 I was put on an antidepression medication and I totally lost the plot. Tried jumping out the back of a moving Panelvan as I thought everyone inside the car where monsters. I couldn't see anyone I knew after a nap, just freaky monsters. Screamed my lungs out and tried to dive out the back.

At the time I was just taking the prescriped meds, no funny fags, no alcohol, no party drugs etc.