thanks Sannah, and Muffy
yes I guess this is a down - should be used to it - its all part of the cycle - I know how it goes - but each time it leaves I hope it wont return - I try not hope that - but I do.... and when I cant do something it reminds me that that part of me is ... I dont know... still broken... gone.... makes me feel bad/sad....
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet