This has to come from my heart. What is more important...being at peace with your boyfriend or having a baby grow up with a mom that smokes and can't change a diaper? I smoked when I was pregnant...mostly I justified it by saying it helped with my morning sickness. But when my dad found out...I said it couldn't hurt the baby he asked me how did I know? Yes, I didn't know what the outcome would be. So I stopped smoking while pregnant only to pick it up again after my child was born....and do it again with the second child. Only when I found out that I didn't want to get up and change my baby's diaper...cause I would rather hang out and smoke..thus when I did get up I couldn't stand up cause I was so stoned...I realized that my child's welfare was more important to me than smoking. Not to say that I was a perfect mom after that...I forgot that day and continued to smoke and drink after my kids went to school. I figured they're at school what's the harm....hummmm I have more stories...and I didn't stop until I was arrested for DWI and the fear of the pot in my system for 30 days and then being found out that's when I quit entirely...and went to the alcohol exclusively....hey it's legal. I hated drinking cause of the way I'd act but without the pot I needed something.
I hope this helps....oh I finally got off all drugs and alcohol at the ripe age of 44. I hope it doesn't take you on the highway to hell as it did me.