((((soft hugs)))) OK that makes my brain hurt, all that thinking you're doing! I try not to look into the mirror so hard, as I, too, have dark circles (anemic) and I quit coloring my hair over a year ago and it's not just grey but multi grey colors, and ...
but this is about you ... and now you CAN nurture your body tofu is good

<-----sits by sorrel and sneaks a bite
please know that reflecting upon life, esp the past is common to everyone... some of us though do get hung up on the past...
ppl who call names are insecure themselves. It isn't about you, it's their problem.
I think....