I haven't eaten all day today... And I don't plan to. I feel like I was wrong last night, like I should have said something to the people being noisy and annoying and stuff...

Connor offered to buy me food earlier and I declined. He then put food in my face and I just turned away and said "No. I don't want anything. I'm not hungry, you eat it"

he looked a bit upset by that, but I can't help it. I'm in so much pain after eating yesterday and it's my stupid fault for eating yesterday. I shouldn't have let Charlene force me like that. I was weak AGAIN.

I don't know what to do I need to sleep, but want to go to the gym...