Patricia, why can't you step away from this? If I was mistreated by someone and nothing was going to change I would be out of there. Staying is what causes the low self worth, to continue to take the terrible treatment. I know that you are no longer in the situation but longing for them cannot be helpful to you. Do you long to make it right and then everything will be alright (with your dad)? We can have these needs to make things right like this.