I am just so frustrated. I am going through this period where all I want to do is crawl into bed and sleep, but I have so much to do and so many people depending on me for different things. I am constantly fighting with myself and it is causing so much stress. I keep having outbursts because I just don't want to deal with even the simple things like taking care of my kids and cleaning my house, and I have a coupld of things going on with my work.
I just want to quit everything and disappear for a long time.

I am frustrated because I have a therapist, but he can't prescribe. My primary care won't treat bipolar and I have to wait until June 11 to see a pdoc for medication. I called and asked if they could fit me in if there was a cancellation, but I haven't heard back so I assume they can't fit it in.

It's all I can do to feed my kids and I can't expect my DH to stay home from work to help. The house is a mess, I am a mess, and I am afraid everything is going to crash down around me.

I wish I didn't have all these responsibilities.

How do you get through it while you aren't medicated?

I've ruined my life before when I have felt this way, and I don't want to do it again.