((((((((((((((((((((((((hangingon)))))))))))))))))))))))

I don't really know how to express anger either...and I really haven't tapped into what I imagine must be a HUGE storehouse of anger somewhere inside of me.

But when I went to therapy, I really didn't know how to express ANY feelings or ANY needs. Now I can express my needs, and I can express and feel love, and I can admit when I am sad or my feelings are hurt, and when I am sad enough I can cry. I've had little microbursts of anger since starting therapy - sometimes at T, and we will work it out, sometimes at other people, and I'll write with BIG BLACK CRAYON and get it out on paper and even burn it sometimes. But the angry moments are few and far between.

I know that in my life, anger has always been a scary, scary, scary thing. I've never really SEEN "healthy" anger. T and I come around to this sometimes- that this is something I need to learn - but we always drift away from it. I'm sure we'll get there eventually.

It really is a process. Just start noticing when you feel angry (like you did in your e-mail) and let yourself grow from there. You (and I!) will get there...