I'm really grateful to everyone who has posted here. I think many of us struggle with dealing with things that are "weird" or "freaky" by the standards of the majority who do not experience such things - and you don't have to be dissociaitve to experience some of what has been described here. In my heart, I don't feel like a freak, but in my mind, the rational part of me, i kind of do. So i don 't know how to reconcile these opposing points of view. I guess I know there is know answer to be found here, but it's something I needed to bring up as I struggle with how much to tell the world about me, knowing that there are far more misperceptions than accuracies. I have "come out" on radio and newsdpaper a few times and have done some teaching about DID, but I got to the point where I could no longer tell the fullness of my experience, could not admit to blowing out street lamps because I risked perpetuating the myths. Perhaps its a problem that human beings are too quick to judge anyone they don't understand - this isn't particular to DD or DID. My problem is, do i continue to try to educate, hide some of my truths in favour of a higher good, or be honest and then say that we really do not fully comprehend the phenomenal capabilities of the human mind and its potential to affect our outer realities. Some people are really getting into the concepts promoted in the book "the Secret" and I am in no way criticizing the power of positive thought. the concept has been around a long, long time, we're just hearing it in a new format. But why is that "acceptable" but psychokinesis, or moving objects with the mind, still way out there? Why isn't attracting millions or curing oneself of cancer way out there? Or maybe it is!!! Am i making any sense? LOL Maybe I'm figuring this out here as i write - if I can compare my blowing out lightbulbs to attracting desired outcomes, do you think people will be less weirded out? I'm afraid I don't make a very good ... can't find a word .... enigma, maybe. Yet, that makes me feel just a little special, too. I really think we are all enigmas, all unique and precious just as we are. At least, I hope so! Hopelessly confused by this!