just checking in. trying to stay me but it is hard. i want to hide so much. went car shopping today and did not find one so i have the rental one more day. ugh. I am hoping that a call in the morning will yeild a car but there are no garuntees. My head is spining and telling me i am a bad person for having a rental for 2 weeks. i know it is the money it is costing that is doing me in but i have to get to work and school. i dread even going to work and the urge to call in and stay in bed is very strong. and i have voices telling me to spend money on dumb things that i dont need right now. things like computer games and velvet posters and dumb stuff. i can afford those things till the car is dealt with. i am losing the battle of my mind. work is hard as i still have to retrain and retest. and i have no idea what to do for my class paper. ive been at the computer for hours now and dont know what i have accomplished. now i am just rambling.
thanks for listening
diana