I feel so guilty because I told myself that as soon as the price of cigarettes went up due to the extra tax being added to them that I was going to quit. Well that lasted about a week. I found myself at my neighbor's bumming a cigarette off of him and the next day making a run to Missouri to get me a pack. I go to Missouri because they are cheaper up there. They don't tax them as much as we do here in Arkansas.

Now every time I go to my parents house I end up finding a reason to get money and get cigarettes. My parents live close the Missouri state line so I guess I figure well I'm up here anyway I might as well go to the line.

I don't smoke every day because I can't afford to buy a carton so I only buy 2-3 packs at a time. The real bad problem is that when I do get them I binge smoke them and end up smoking 2 packs in one day.

I need to just bite the proverbial bullet and quit once and for all but this addiction is so hard for me to quit. I would like to throttle the cigarette company for making them so addicting. Then I would like to go back in time and kick myself for buying that first pack.

Jan