Alright, this is going to be very difficult for me to ask help with. PLEASE WOMAN ONLY read this problem, I would very much appreciate it. I am a little shy when it comes to asking help with these types of issues so please bear with me...

OK, so it all started in elementry school (5th grade I think...9 or 10 years old I believe.) This problem came out of the blue last night when I was trying to get to sleep. I know that some little girls have this issue with 'touching' themselves down below. I was one of those girls, its embarrasing to say. I didnt even know what I was doing, I was just doing it because it was a feeling I never felt before and it felt good. But anyway, back to the original story...

I remember in 5th grade I had to sit next to this little boy who would make perverted jokes (I would laugh because I thought they were funny at the time.) Anyway, for some strange reason I feel like I wanted to touch myself in class! I dont remember how everything played out, it was such a long time ago (Im currently 16 years old.) I dont remember what I did in class, my guess is maybe I tried to touch myself but then I realized 'I shouldn't be doing this in class, and with a boy next to me!'

I have always been a little shy ever since I was young. So thats why Im guessing I didnt play this little 'touching' scene out in class. But I have this problem that when I cant remember something fully, my mind will make me believe that I played out the worse possible scenerio. I go crazy when I cant remember something-It causes me to get into a deep depression and causes me unwanted stress. I will sit around for days trying to remember everything that happend! If there is someone here who has any advice and would like to share their similar stories I would very much appreciate your help.