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Have you read this book about Depersonalization disorder and the Loss of the Self?..............

I've been stuck in this mode for many years. I've been treated for major depression, panic disorder, epilepsy, and traumatic brain injury. Yet, the depersonalization continues and I despise it. Saying that I feel alone isn't an adequate description of how I truly feel. I cannot find the words to describe my feelings.

I have no idea of who I am. I feel very removed from myself, family, and friends. I'm simply a shell. Feeling so alone ~ Panic. I can't bring myself out of it already! Even though I'm completely exhausted, I've been sleeping horribly for a couple of weeks now. Twenty minutes here, waking to body jerks and a pounding heart. I get myself calmed down after a few minutes, but it takes another hour to fall asleep. Then I wake after another hour. Over again!

It is nice to know that I'm not the only one suffering this miserable existance, in a way. I just want it to stop already! I become pretty angry with whoever I am. This life sucks!