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When i met my abuser i was just a kid at heart (i was in my 30s). But i was very immature, mentally ill, innocent and naive. During the relationship with my abuser, i know i was in my 30s, but the sex was 'dirty' and not mutual and without consent and it was required or there would be severe consequences; just like i would imagine molestation between an adult and a child.
Maybe i am out of line comparing my situation to molestation. i apologized if i am being offensive.
It's just that that is how it felt and it felt like something, like my innocence was taken from me.
i feel so dirty now and there is no way i could be intimate with someone now. Even though it's been over 3 1/2 years. i can't even shake hands with people or hug my family.
How does one get that back? That innocence. Is it possible?
Do i even have the right to feel this way? i was an adult.
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Last edited by Berries; May 08, 2009 at 06:23 PM.
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