Hi Shezbut!

I just read your post. Just recently I found out there was a term for what I'd been feeling my whole life: depersonalization! Like you, it INFURIATES me when this happens, because I can't control it or feel in control. You're right, it does suck, big time! And I never feel like I belong - in any group or situation.

I'm not like this all the time, but I do feel it in many social situations. I'm fine when I'm by myself, but around people, I feel like I'm stepping back,watching my life take place almost without me.

Shezbut, it sounds like you have it much worse than I do. At least mine goes away, and I pretty much know when to expect it to return. Still sucks, though. Besides that, I'm also bipolar and have OCD, not to mention a clinic full of medical conditions. But I'm alive, and hope to stay that way for a while.

I know when I found out what this was, and that I wasn't crazy or alone with this, that by itself gave me comfort. I hope it does for you, too.

If you need to talk, or just want a friend, you know how to reach me.
Just hang in there, ok?

Your friend,

-KennyBoy-