Yeah, I second Sky. Telling your T about how you feel could be very scary, I'm sure, but it could also really move your therapy forward. I also felt that way and when I finally told my T, she was VERY understanding and I felt so much better. She didn't chastise me, she just wanted to find out more so she could help. It was scary, though, because it put me in SUCH a vulnerable position. But guess what? We are SUPPOSED to have feelings about our T's and by examining them we move forward. Plus, the feelings you're describing seem very painful and why not enlist her support in dealing with them? Take care, ok? Lauren.