Thanks guys but both of you are too young to understand. I was careless when I was your age. Didn't realize how age changes your opportunities to make choices. Now at 32 I'm only hanging out with gay guys and a handful of single gals like me because ....everybody else is nesting at home with their wives, husbands and babies. Seriously. I haven't met a single available guy in ages. They are all involved or engaged or married.
For the past 2-3 years it's been raining fancy invitations (weddings, engagements, baby showers, baptisms...). It's crazy. Lately, I feel like passing out with every invite. Can't stand it anymore. Sure, I play it cool and attend these things....with a smile.....and I always find myself among sets of couples! And of course they ALWAYS shoot me down with questions like "You're here alone?", "No boyfriend yet?", "Wake up girl, you're wasting time!"....yea....as if I can help it.....or as if I chose to be alone!

Now I fall in the category of "set-ups", which embarrass me cause I feel useless as a woman...being unable to find my own man AND the dudes are always divorcees with kids. How depressing. The last guy that I was introduced to was 50, divorced with 4 boys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Let me tell you that after that "fix-up" attempt I just wanted to kill myself.

You both have the 20-30 decade ahead of you! 10 beautiful years full with opportunity. LISTEN TO ME: if the guy you are with is stringing you along for more than 2 years...start asking him of where is this going! Don't wait and don't hope. Don't take things for granted. He might not love you. He might be leading you on! It was the cruelest thing to be dumped at 28. I loved him so much that it took me too long to recover. Look at me now! I'm passing among people unnoticeable. Even 38 year old guys are looking for 28 year olds. You should see their faces when I tell them that I'm 32! It's the same face every time. The "damn, I'm wasting my time here" face. And the scary thing is that these guys were either the same age as me or older.

This past year I've pulled myself away. I'm no longer looking, no longer interested. I've given up. I'm focusing in methods of surviving a life alone. I'm looking into ways of having children without a dad, going through adoption sites, single-motherhood sites and contemplating whether it is fair for a kid to be raised without a dad. Do you see my choices now? I'm lead to these choices because of him! He took away my opportunity to be with a man I loved, to have kids together and to be happy. He loved me too....and this is what drives me crazy. How did he wake up one day feeling different? Does he know that he's destroyed me? Does it ever cross his mind?