. I am a mom of a Bipolar 1 ultra rapid cycler w/ psychotic episodes. After getting through all the medical terminology, I found memoirs of others to be very helpful for me and my daughter.. Just the other day I began reading a book called, I just want my daughter back by B C Levinson that I got on Amazon. It really is a great story about a mothers experiences with her daughters bipolar disorder. It is really inspiring me to keep my chin up and stay strong for my daughter who has bipolar 1. It has also helped her see more clearly some of the things that she is doing are signs to listen too. At some point you have to accept that you are not always the best judge of what's real.. Find that person that can help keep you straight.. Just a thought. Take care & hang in there...