Sky-
maybe i know what you mean: do you mean that it is for you the quality of the though/belief/insight? Like relentless or compelling? As to history ive always been hospitalized only during psychotic episodes and sui_ depression one driving the other. . .so im aware of having had lost touch with reality before. I think maybe as im becoming more aware of dissociated partselves this out of touch part (that has always been voices recommending sui_ taunts and commands) can no loner be dissociated. Is this at all clearer or did i muddy it worse?
BTW i do understand that this is not therapy to discuss these things - just therapuetic - so i hold anyone harmless who gives an opinion from there own experience. i believe in peoples good intentions.