I remember when I first got a crumb of courage to enquire whether T would "Like" me if she had just met me outside of therapy, and I remember how she sort of swept it away with her hand in movement mid air and wriggled her mouth. Its funny I can't remember what she actually said, I think it was something along the lines of, "Liking or disliking" is irrelavant", perhaps she didn't actually say that, perhaps thats more my understanding of the slight movement of hand and mouth that I took it as that.

At first that was shocking to me. My whole immature existence on this planet had been based on gaining and winning aliances with people, and also my liking or disliking of people was all I knew, I hadn't ever met anyone that could put aside personal prejudices and be in the moment with someone.

Now I understand a bit better, that liking someone or disliking them is pretty much irrelavant to me now. I do not care if I meet someone who appears to dislike me, I am able now to strug, allow them their personal prejudice and continue on. Thank you T for showing me this!!

I heard a saying once about firemen, that they can only put out the hottest fire, I think whilst being with T during the "hour" each of us are that "hottest fire", and outside the hour, it can become so influenced by so many other intrusions.