Thank you all for your responses. I am doing ok. I went and visited my moms grave for the first time since her funeral. I decided to go alone, I didn't want anyone to be with me. As soon as I saw the stone, tears welled up, her favorite verse was on it.
I stayed for all of three minutes and left. Didn't try to talk to her. I don't know, I am sort of confused with everything right now.

I sent a return response to my T saying I don't know how to feel the anger but I am not opposed to trying to talk about. And then like an idiot, I decide to ask her in that same email if she could share something personal about herself with me.

Like why she got into counseling, is there a certain thing she struggles with ect. I said that is if you want to share it. I have not heard back from her, now I feel really dumb. Its been a few days. I think I just needed to know a little more about her.

I share such personal things with her but know hardley anything about her. It almost seems unfair. I feel like I would be able to trust her more if I could see the more human side of her.

In the very beginning, she did tell me she has a daughter and a son, that she is married and that she had 7 years of counseling herself. I never asked her about that because I felt like I would be violating some boundary. Now it's been over 5 months. I guess I just needed to know a little more about her. Maybe I did cross some boundary in asking that; I would have felt better if she just sent a simple response sharing her thoughts on that.

I'm trying to think of things that I need, she told me to do that. Well one thing would be knowing a tad bit more about her. I didn't tell her that I feel like I need that, maybe I should have in the email. But the fact that I got the nerve to come out and ask that should say something to her ........right?