Pinupgal, you are not worthless and lazy. HE is the one who done the wrong. Not you. Don't belive a word he is telling you about your looks and worth. That is his way of controling you and it's lies. It was'nt you looking up prostitutes online. It was him and THAT is disgusting. He's got a guilty concience and that is why he is acting like a prick. You can make it on your own. It seems like it's impossible but it's not. I agree with the previous post. Get yourself a support group. And leave his butt. He might be talking trash right now but he could turn physically abusive to you. And he is not setting a very good example for the kids to be calling their mother those names in front of them. He is the worthless one. You deserve better. You are a beautiful person and he does'nt know it but he will when you're not there anymore.