my youngest daughter is pregnant. she doesn't know that i know...she is addicted to meth. she called her sister and told her. the father is someone that i can hardly stand to be in the room with. he usually buys the meth. she hasn't used since she found out about the baby. when she was pregnant with bella, she quit smoking, eating sugar and everything else she thought would be harmful to the baby. we've been trying to get her into rehab for two years. she's 35 and we can't committ her. my oldest daughter and i have kept bella, who's 6, off and on for periods from 2 weeks to 5 or six months. she is pretty stable considering what she's gone through and is very close to her mom. i am praying that we get her for the entire summer.

i talked to my ER doc friend yesterday and he said if the initial sonargram was good, the physical will be okay. but, the addictive properties of meth may affect the baby's mental and emotional growth. i've been in shock since i found this out. my daughter and i haven't been talking lately. she let her car, that i co-signed on, get re=possessed and i had to eat the payments. she doesn't seem to bothered by that and i'm very bothered by it. i don't make enough to do that. when i call, i only get to talk to bella. i'd like to talk to her about her options, but she's made her mind up to go through with the pregnancy. says she is going to make the "father pay"..whatever that means. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee it's not a very good reason to become a mother, when you can't take care of what you've already got. (we have a college fund for bella, because we've believed for a very long time that we'll have her eventually.)

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