I am still struggling in therapy and as most of you know I have been for a while now. I am trying to understand it. I know I have been told over and over again to talk to my T about it. With that said ...

My T switched gears to the marriage which is important and okay. I sent her an email telling her that I have been struggling in therapy and a couple of things that triggered me and a list of some personal issues. During our next session I told her I had a bad week and that is why I wrote the email. She said she thought it was a good time to switch gears and we should stay focused. If we do not stay focused therapy can get off track. I forget the exact word she used. I understand.

I am wondering if that is adding to my problem talking. Talking is always very difficult for me but it is much worse now. I do not even want to go to my next individual session. I am thinking maybe subconsciously I feel because we did not discuss some of those issues in the email maybe I am holding back? I am not holding back on purpose but maybe I am questioning what I should or should't discuss? And questioning many other things that I shouldn't be concerned with. I am at a loss.

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