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Hi, My Presenting host is Cindy. Although she is not the birth person. My cousin, and I were raised in a transgenerational Cult, MC/PTSD/SRA/Depression.
The body is 53 yrs. young. We have 2 daughters', and combined with my daughters'? I / We are proud grandparent/s
Of 9, yes, 9 grands. They begin very early.
I was diagnosed back in January of 1992 while my now ex husband was stationed in Tuscon, AZ. at Davis Monthan
A.F.B. I always knew something was just not quite right
about me, and my memory.
Found a Therapist, and took some kind of test. It wasn't
until I "woke up" at a gas station, way out in the desert.
I was holding a knife, and some gang members were running for their life. I had no idea what took place.
I heard my T. on the line. She asked me where I was?
I told her best I could. She came and I followed her back
to her office.
My Psychiatrist new I was D.I.D. But my T. was not sure
until this incident.
Anyways, memories flooded me like the Great Flood!
Once, in the hospital? Mental one. See, I would not accept
the diagnosis. I woke up to my T. leaving my room. she was there to talk to me. Well, I asked her where she was going? she said, "What? I have been talking to "someone"
for 3 hours. Look at the time. I was so scared and shocked.
Long story short? We ended up in Indiana. (I am from Louisiana.) My now ex husband was very abusive. He would make fun of my parts. Finally, in 06 he (cheated)
I knew already! Feb 14 he told me he no longer loved me.
I have one daughter, my youngest who is 27 yrs., has completely cut me off from her life 3 months ago.
I miss seeing my grands. I got brave, sent her a letter, in her Mothers' day card.
She is already married with 5 children. (she has stayed with
one abuser for ten yrs. before breaking it off.) 4 of my grands belong to him.. then? She just had her last baby.
A boy. 3 months ago she told me, "You are a Burden!" Not a Mother!" So, we ( her now husband from marrying at Justice of Peace) decided to have no contact with you for 2 months. It has been longer now. She is having a wedding,
a shower, and a honeymoon. I don't understand it, but, oh well. I am telling you all this because, all my "others'" feel
as though they did something horrible to make her do this."
I am on Disability, mental, and physical too. We are having
big trouble with insomnia! Even taking our meds.
How would any of you cope with a Daughter like mine?
She only thinks of herself.... ( plus, she is closer to her Dad)
I sent her a letter in her card. Yet, what am I suppose to do when it comes to Wedding Shower at "his" Mother's house,
who can not stand me, and the same goes for me."
Do I go? Well, I wrote to her letting her know we have to
have a Mother / Daughter talk. Soon, before shower, and
wedding. We will cry , I/we know we will.
Could someone tell me if they have had a similar experience? Adult Children from Divorce is hard. But,
do I deserve her bluntness? Do I call her? Wait to see if
she responds to me? I am sort of afraid of her. Weird, I know. I am sorry this is so long. But, I did want everyone to know what is going on in my life. Oh, I have chronic pancreatitis, plus, (like Doc said) "You have a fatty pancreas" and are an Odd case.
Nice to meet all of you. Hope to hear from y'all.
Cindy/presenting host. Of "What we call ourselves"
TheCountry.
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