Oh boy. Last night I slept for 12 hours and thankfully, woke up feeling grounded again. Then I mowed the lawn to make sure I stayed grounded! LOL

The experience of checking out and noticing it is distressing but then waking up and knowing you've been gone for two days is even more upsetting on some level. Here's the thing--I worked and I remember everything so it's not like I forgot about what I did, I just did it all in a very disconnected way. Last evening the feelings were so overwhelming that I had to take 2 klonopin to break the episode. Maybe this is part of healing? I mean noticing the dissociation (depersonalization and derealization) as it was happening?

I had a mini phone session with T to talk about the intensity of the feelings that came up last evening and the fact that I feel like I have been dissociated for two days. Sigh. He is the best T in the world.