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I know EXACTLY how you feel. I struggle soooooo much in T. It's gotten to the point where I have to write things down and bring them to her and even then Im squirming around, zoning out and ready to run out the door....

I am not quite sure I have any words of advice since it seems as though we are sitting in the same boat. I would suggest talking about this with your therapist.

T and I discussed this and I told her I can talk about anyone else, anything else (work, friends, my ex, my sisters) but when it comes to me....I can't say anything. AND like you I constantly question what I should and shouldnt talk about in therapy...everyone here will say "everything and anything can be talked about and discussed" and that is what my T told me recently. I wrote her a list of everything I probably should have told her ages ago and after she read it she said "well, these are the things we are supposed to talk about in therapy. that is what therapy is for".

So maybe you can start by telling your T you are not sure what to discuss and what not to discuss. I am sure if your T is anything like mine she will probably say the same thing my T said. Can you write something and bring you want to talk about and take it to T?? Even if you start with why you are struggling to talk and your thoughts and feelings about it?