with me... i am never "ready" . but sometimes it forces itself on me, and that is when we talk. e.g., i had a really bad period of remembering before xmas, so we talked about it a little bit then. i got triggered a few weeks ago, and pdoc wanted to talk about it, but i was too scared it would overwhelm me again, so we decided to hold off. right now, i have too much on my plate to be ok with being overwhelmed. e.g., i have uni assessments i need to get through. but at xmas it was ok, because i didnt have to perform so much. it was ok for me to get overwhelmed then, and pdoc really helped me through it, so it wasnt like i was alone, either.

i think people who go to therapy and can talk about this stuff session after session are so brave. i only do it when i absolutely have to.