It is really hard for me to understand why after going through a hospitalization and then starting to feel really good, to start to decline. I am still mostly happy, but i am sad a lot still. I was diagnosed with Depression and anxiety about two years ago, but have dealt with it for about 8 years now. Why do I get to feel better and then just slide right back down when everything seems to start working out so well for me. I should be very happy right now, I just got accepted into Grad school, I am on the right track to the career I want, but then I get stuck again. I feel like I will never have control of my life fully, maybe never.
I really don't like talking about this with my counselor, especially after we have worked so hard and made a lot of progress, I guess from this long, probably scattered and confusing post, is my question.... Will I ever be good for longer than a few months? Will i have the ability to keep my feelings in check and my mind positive?? Or am I doomed to live in a depression the rest of my life with only short periods of happy times.