You are not dirty in your soul or your body; its just that you were injured and taken advantage of.

To heal that injury, first, think about how that past abuse (and it is in the past, not happening now) influences how you choose to live your life now. How would you rather live your life?

A good therapist can help you deal with your feelings and beliefs about what happened. You are not alone, many people who have been abused and gone to therapy to figure it out. It is possible to have a good life after abuse.

Believe in yourself, believe you want to be a good person and live a good life, and believe that you can build a happier and more satisfying life.