Hi all. This post might belong in the dissociative forum but because it involves transgenderism as well i wasn't sure and I'm just gonna post it here. forgive me for posting in the wrong area.

a couple of years ago i integrated my personalities and have been learning to accept who i am ever since. Unfortunately, who i am is a bisexual woman living in a mans body. A chubby, hairy balding mans body to boot

I thank God for all the help he's given me over the years. I feel that he wants me to live as a man, and he's helped me to deal and cope with the feeling of being trapped. It was at one point completely unbearable. It still isn't easy.

There are advantages to being who i am. I have an 'inside track' to both women and men. And I'm certainly unique.

But on the other hand, i feel like maybe i'm too unique

The biggest issue I have at the moment is that I feel like i'm ready to date again. But is that even possible?

What kind of woman would want to date a woman in a mans body who is also a christian? Twice in the past Ive ended up inadvertently dating women who were lesbians that hadn't admitted it to themselves yet. and of course, that's a dead end road for me.

To be honest it feels pretty hopeless. I've almost ready to accept a life of unwilling celibacy.