Ooo the weekend was amazing! Even though there was a lot of b-tchiness and other such silly things, I had much fun and sletp really well!!!

Things messed up a little yesterday, but the problem got solved and all is well. Although I did have a very low moment by the evening yesterday and today I feel crappy still, but no-one's going to bring me down any further because I'm in an ignoring all the petty people mood today. I have interviews to prepare for. I'm helping the staff here choose a new key support worker. Eeep!

I'm still tired and slightly irritable today, but I think most of the day will be spent chilling out in my room and stuff. I'll be going to see Georgie in July when she finishes college and I'll be moving into a new flat very soon. All scary but exciting stuff!

I guess last night I just got sick of people being so horribly nasty to me and then thinking they can start using and abusing me again by just being nice again. Hahahahaha - NO! Don't think so somehow. C----- came to ask for something last night and I opened the door, thinking it was someone else and she said "Can I have your sieve?" "Uhh. I don't have one" here comes the attitude! "Yes you do!"
"I know for a fact I don't but I have a strainer. But then again... I don't have it, either you or R--- has got it" "No I haven't and neither's R---" "Well I don't have it"
"Alright, calm down! Corrrr, calm down! F-cking. Women!"

Aha. Not forgetting that C------- is also a woman (or girl, take your pick!), I laughed as I shut the door. Hehe. It was funny but at the same time just got me fuming again because she still thinks she can demand things from me or whatever and me be like "Course you can!!" After all the trouble I've had from people here..? No. Don't think so somehow. And if she reads this, I don't care because if she didn't want to hear it, then she shouldn't be reading it. I admit, maybe I was wrong putting the names of people in, but then again no I wasn't because of last names not being put in and other such things. I did speak to the staff here and they're sorting it out because I guess they're fed up of someone - me - that's so helpful and kind to people is getting hurt by the people that she has tried - and sometimes succeeded in - helping. So let's hope that something gets done about this!

I'm strangely weak and tired today, but I guess it's all the running around at the weekend and finally relaxing... After such a long time. It felt great to just be able to chill, be able to laugh and truly be laughing and happy and just to be able to be with one person that I know cares a lot about me and wants me to be happy. Of course, Georgie went quite silent after the dispute between K---- and I, so I thought something was wrong with her. I asked and she said "Kirst, I just worry about you. I can't help it. Seeing what s--t some of the people here put you through... It just makes me worry even more... Especially when I can see you're so close to tears. I know it's the shock, not that you're scared because I know you've handled it... But I just can't believe that these people can be so ungrateful and spiteful to you - someone that cares about others so much. It's not me that's upset or anything, I'm just worried about you and it hurts me to see someone I care about having people try to break her down. Are you okay?"
"Don't worry about me... I'm just shocked that's all. I never expected them to start while you were here, to be honest. I'm fine, just. Would rather live on the streets than this place. I'm sick of everyone here. They do my head in and just will not leave me alone. What the hell did I ever do?"
"That's why I worry, Kirst. You need time away from this place, even just a few days away, or a week. Just to give yourself a break for once and let yourself chill out more instead of always being on edge. I can see you're on edge alllll the time. Apart from when we're havig lots of fun of course! I just want you to feel safe for once in your life. They did that to try and show you up. Heh. The only person they showed up was themselves - not you. It actually showed that you're the level headed, sensible one who can sort things out without violence. Pff. Peple here suck and you don't deserve it at all."

Hmmm. It's nice to have people who care like that. I hate that they started on me whilst Georgie was sat right there. It was awful and my guess is that they did it to show me up. I'm glad that Georgie put it into perspective for me and said that she doesn't see people who cry as weak, but actually admires them for crying... It made me feel like a better, stronger person in the end and that even in tough and silly situations - including violence - I can sort it out quite simply and without the violence.

I just wish it was more simple than having to deal with that, though! People like K---- and C------- annoy me because they seem to think taht violence is the only way to "solve" a problem. Heh. No. Don't think so somehow. Oh well. It's over now. I just can't wait to get my butt out of this place.