Sunrise,

Thanks for informing me a bit about somatic therapy and what it involves. The thing i can't figure out is. . .if my t is referring me out because she can't meet my needs for physical comfort. . .yet somatic experiencing does not offer physical comfort . . .then why is she referring me to that type of therapy? My t never really said why she would recommend that type of therapy or how it differs from what she can do. So I find that confusing.

As far as being nurturing in other ways besides giving a hug, yes, she speaks in a comforting way and has done visualizations with me of receiving physical comfort. I have found them somewhat comforting, but not as much as i would hope.

I realize that my t must have my best interests in mind and must not feel that giving me physical comfort would help me. I think she's wrong though. Withholding it over and over when I'm feeling grief and pain is more damaging. But I can't convince her of that, and I'm out of energy to even try to get it anymore.

t encouraged me to share my pain and ask for what I need, but when i did, whe was not willing to provide it. I feel like inside like I've given up on getting what i need. i feel depressed and empty now, like i want to pull back the part of me that feels like a little girl and keep her hidden from t now. I'm trying to remember the other good things t does for me, but i feel so hurt inside.