I put the trigger icon on for those who might be in a rough place right now. I'm not sure how triggering it is, but I might have avoided it under certain circumstances, so here we are.

I know a number of you have been where I am right now. I did something stupid and have to tell T about it in my next session. Basically, I OD'd, but I knew it wasn't enough to kill me. It was for self-harm, but I've never used that method before. I can't explain the reasons for the switch, and I can't promise him that I won't do it again (I don't want to. I tell myself I won't, but I told myself I wouldn't ever do something like that before, too. I feel very out of control right now...i've been in sort sort of a rough patch that has been going on for a month or so)

My question is...have you ever had to "face the music" in this sense? How did your T react? I'm really scared that he's going to be a.) disappointed b.) worried or c.) all of the above. I'm afraid of what he's going to say...maybe he'll think he can't help me anymore, and send me away? I know these are those types of fears we all have, and they're probably not going to happen, but maybe they could?